Long time no see.
Much has happened.
Nothing truly epic. Just
stuff. I have gotten into rock
climbing. I find it hellaciously fun in
so many ways. I have a group of friends
that I go to a local climbing gym with and we encourage each other to keep
trying. I have much to learn. I have not yet made it to the top, but I am
getting closer each time. A mental
barrier hits me at some point. My hands
get more sweaty and my arms start to give out.
I need to learn to use my legs so much more rather than rely on my upper
body for all the power and strength. My
climbing friends are quite inspirational for me to try harder. I am glad for their patience. Yesterday I wore my Rainbow Dash costume
while climbing, in celebration of Halloween.
It was fun. The headband of ears
got annoying as sweat was making things slippery.
This past weekend I kayak camped with a friend and his
friends. We did Silver Creek out of
Picabo, ID. Very slow water. Easy.
Scenic. Shit ton of fish on the
first day’s journey. Looks to be fairly
oligotrophic creek, full of aquatic vegetation.
Fun to watch the fish swim from one plant channel to another. The water was crystal clear. Breath-takingly so. On the second day, we kayaked further. Putting in at our camp spot. My friend and I took Sun Valley to Stanley to
Lowman to Banks home. Beautiful
drive. I am glad for the friends that I
have.
I started training with the Spearhead Pathfinder program to
help me get ready for my GORUCK Heavy that I hope to do in May. Training started on Oct 1. There are various “challenges” we have to
complete during the 12-week program. We
also have to ruck at least 75mi, be a team “leader” for some WODs (workout of
the day), ruck so many miles before/after a workout, etc. I am thoroughly enjoying my training. It is kicking my ass royally. My shoulders and neck are always tired. I carry my ruck with my 20lb plate almost
everywhere I go. I even wore it during
the Mountain Home Highland Games that I competed in. So many people wanted to know what I was doing. So I got a chance to explain GORUCK to them.
I took 3rd overall of 7 in my women’s novice
group. I even scored 1st in
the light weight for distance toss and tied for 1st on the cabre
toss. I need to start making my own
implements, or at least finding some stones I can practice on to get
better. I enjoy training and competing
in the games.
So far, 2015 has been such a wonderful year for myself. I have grown so much more as a person and
gotten to know myself so much more in the past 10months than I have almost any
others before that. I am finally
comfortable with who I am as a person. I
look in the mirror at the gym while working out and am proud of the reflection
looking back at me. I have worked very
hard on my health, improving my strength and taking time for me, to do and
pursue the things that I enjoy. I think
living on my own has helped with this. I
set my own schedule. I do my own
thing. Sometimes I wish I had a
permanent dwelling to live in.
Especially now that the weather has been cooling off. Ick. I’m
always a little chilled now. But for
now, I am holding off on much winterization since I am moving to a different
spot in the park next week. I saw a used
27’ gooseneck that has the polar package for sale locally. I got so excited to see it. But the owner wanted to give me much less
than what I thought mine was worth to trade it as a down payment. Sad.
So my summer 21’ trailer will have to do. I hope this winter is not too cold. I encountered a problem that the water
pressure going in the trailer was too great.
It started to fill up my fresh water tank. So now I have a hose attached to a pressure
valve to let the water drip out. I will
have to figure out a different solution since overnight freezes are occurring. *sigh*
I probably have to buy a new valve part or something. Suck.
I have a GORUCK Light event on Halloween in Seattle this
weekend. I admit I am not overly excited
for it simply because I am stressing a bit about my move and trying to find
someone with the proper hookups to help me move my trailer and thus all my
other accoutrements with it. I want to
do more overnight kayaking/camping trips before the snow prevents it. I am glad to have friends willing to be as
crazy as I am for our outdoor adventures.
Much thanks to you, Friends. I do
not think I tell you often enough how much I appreciate your existence and the
time we spend together.
I have also come to realise that in order to achieve a
certain level of happiness, it helps to have another human to bond to
intimately. I have not done that for
years. And I miss it terribly. I do not let it get me down. And I do not deviate from my criteria for a
life partner. But I have found an online
community full of people similar to myself and it is so refreshing to see that
people just like me all over the U.S. are having the same problems. It is a relief to know that I am not alone in
that aspect. It is the little things,
like a touch. Not just a hug from a
friend or when hands or limbs accidentally brush against one another. I mean a touch from someone that has
meaning. The touch has meaning. I also have not had that for years. So much to the point that I shy away from
human touch in general, whether from friends or not. It at times, makes we hyper vigilant and anticipatory. So when I find someone I am comfortable with,
it is a relief to just touch. Simple
touch. A lean in. A hand hold.
It amazes me how much happier and fulfilling those little things can
make a person feel. Someday I may find
the person who makes me feel that way regularly. Someday.
Until then, at least I love myself.
Spot on article about being an "Alpha Female".
